haix. i am feeling terrible. i think i am not living my spiritual life correctly.i think i am suffering from spiritual dryness. according to Don, it is the dark night of the soul. Here's wat happened lately. During mass you noe i got many new young servers to train right? normally even if they do mistake, i will not feel anything and the joy of teaching is there. but lately, when they do a small mistake, i get super angry. during mass somemore! then yesterday after meeting, i was suppose to end with the closing prayer. my mind like went blank and someone had to continue the prayer for me.

i can feel the dryness and emptiness in my heart.

I am going off to church to pray soon. and i am also going to buy a book about the dark night. i need to noe more about it and how to cope with it...